12 week Journal Entry

Journal Entry - Tuesday, December 10th.

I want to write everything down tonight so I don't forget anything!  Today was one of the most exhilarating, amazing, and loving days.  Derek and I were able to see our baby clearly and hear the heartbeat for the first time.  Words can truly not express the overwhelming and loving feelings that consumed us.  For me, this was the first time I really felt attached and connected with our child.  I always felt guilty that I didn't really feel that connection at our first appointment. but after today I know now the love of a mother to their child ... and this is just the beginning.

At this time, I am reminded about the passage in Psalms.  He has known us even before we were a glimpse on this earth.  God has created us in His own image and knows every crevice, every hair, every inch of His creation.  I always knew and believed this growing up, but this truly sank in today.  Seeing our child today, with a rounded head kicking legs and arms, rolling around in there is truly God's miracle and gift to us.
"Behold, Children are a gift of the Lord ... the fruit of the womb is a reward." Psalms 127:3-5
I can honestly say, this is one of the closest days I have felt to the Lord and my husband.  He is so powerful, and His creations are such a miracle.  Derek and I are truly blessed to experience this together. 

I also keep thinking that God provided this child to us knowing that we will be the best parents to this girl or boy.  He specifically chose us - how cool is that?!?  My prayer is not only for a healthy growing baby, but really for Derek and I to be Godly parents to our children and teach them in the best possible manner.  Always reverting back to God's grace and love as the example He has given us.

TO OUR BABY:
I already love you whole heartedly.  Even though you are only 12 weeks old, you are growing at such an incredible rate.  I am so honored and blessed that I will be your mom.  I pray for you daily, not just as you develop, but for your life to come.  I love you so much and cant wait to hear your little heartbeat in 4 more weeks.